Norma Jean

Chloe Sevigny by Inez van Lamsweerde

great, great talent. Inez van Lamsweerde/ Vinoodh Matadin have become my new favorite pair to research and "oooh and ahhh" over.

Monterey Bay Aquarium

here are some photos from the aquarium. i still want to share other photos from our trip up the coast, though. however, for now, i've got these images. hands down, it has to be one of the best aquariums out there- although, i've only been to one other. i had the greatest time in Monterey- i dreaded the morning we had to check out of our hotel. it was just another reassuring experience that allowed me to again realize that i'm not an "L.A." girl.

solitude

the lack of normalcy in my life makes me feel extreme loneliness. i hate caring. i hate seeing other people's lives and feeling envious. i know what other people mean when they have the latter tendency to build an "American dream" or the "perfect family" in the absence of likeability in terms of their own up-bringing, a pleasant childhood or rational relationships. i'm totally lacking and its always been this way. i've never been first, its never been about me. i tag along, my opinion never matters and at the end of the day all i have are my thoughts. a little girl supressed and wishful of a different life. being left behind, put on the back burner. i've been neglected and forgotten...i've been neglected while still being in the room right next to her. why hasn't she ever cared? or talked? or asked? or had sympathy; empathy? and why am i always affected by her bad judgement and ridiculous decisions. i hate caring because she doesn't even care.

i hate that all my life, i've known that i'm the only person i have. so, thank god for miracles. thank god for my best friend. two years of feeling like i am cared for and considered and loved. thanks, matt.

inside Erin Wasson's apt.

This picture-post should speak for itself. I will keep the text down to a minimum this time. I've been really intrigued by Dwell magazine lately and have always loved a "loft" type of place/ ie: studio, NY apartment... Erin Wasson's apartment is to die for. I love the effortless beauty of the decor. Every room seems so lived in. Anyone could easily identify her home with & by her own personal style.

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anyhow, i just got back from Monterey Bay/ Santa Cruz CA... i'm working on photo editing. but i'll post em up soon.

Rodney Smith

One photographer whose eye is so utterly keen and promising is that of Rodney Smith. You may have seen his work for BMW ad campaigns or a plethora of noteworthy designers, magazines and varying companies {ie: The New York Times, W Magazine, American Express, Saks 5th Ave, Ralph Lauren, Starbucks Coffee- etc}

His work is poignant, yet simple at the same time. It is provocative of our own human nature- it is satire with hope, with love, with humor, with obscurity and definite surrealism. His compositions always serve some sort of purpose, it is aesthetically decided and imaginative and formed to make the mind speculate reality. Looking through his portfolio, I always find myself feeling as if I were asleep and awake and aware all at the same time. I see someone making a picture before me- allowing me curiosity and calming my mind all the while.

Often times in Smith's images, I get the sense of belittlement and inferiority. Its perplexing and I tend to feel sympathetic, although triumphant in its beauty & symbolism. His exposures, lighting, thought, his ART- everything is TOP.

rodneysmith.com

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